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well im a 27 year old single mother out of apopka florida i have 4 kids,plus i have custody of my 14 year old brother and my mentally sister shes 23 we have been thru alot in these past 4 years my mom died 10/04/04 and i have been taking care of my little family on own since then it seems when my mom left my dad left also im not looking for a pitty party im asking for help.due to my mothers death ive been forced to things i didnt want to like stealing,i turned to drugs for comfort,getting in trouble with the law just terrible things but i would do anything for my kids,brother,sister! i mean i just want them to have the best christmas ever i want them to smile again.yhey inspire me to keep holding on to that hope things would get better for us.i know god is testing me also and i love him for that 100% my uncle has been there thru it all but now hes sick he found out he have cancer im afraid hes gonna leave us also then ill have noone if theres a way you could help me let them have a merry christmas please help me please im not afraid to ask for help at all. im just severely depressed all the time wondering would my kids think im a bad mom cause of the things were going thru i keep asking god to give me strenth to keep a smile on my face for them ive lost everything you know were living with my uncle and its really crowded but he helps so many people,he has a big heart,hes not selfish at all i also have a best friend whos there for me her name is gwenita shes great! i just wish i could repay my kids and brother and sister for being so strong thru all of this my kids names are twakeliyahh shes 11,marquuez hes 6, jaylen hes 4, zion hes 7 months and robbie hes 14(brother),alexus shes 23(sister) im beggin you guys please help me the kids have a wish list they made but they really want there own space they want to move but due to my criminal back ground no one will hire me i look every day for work im just lost,confrused i dont know what to do please help me please the kids are great in school good grades they deserve a big reward for everything!! when my mom died its like my dad gave up on us completely its not right but ill never turn my back on them i got to keep holding on to the faith. its been times we had to walk in the rain,cold,sleep outside,begg for food and they dont deserve that at all so god please touch these nice peoples hearts so thell help us and also bless their family and keep them in the best of health by the way my name is shonicka turner please respond asap.. god bless you forever!!!!!!!!